I have become bored with “church.” What I mean, is I have become bored with that weekly meeting that occurs on Sunday mornings. My wife and I have not attended a Sunday morning meeting in over a month. At first missing these meetings made me feel kind of guilty. I had always wanted to continue my Sunday morning meetings because I felt like it was the only way I could build a relationship with these people. In a way, I still kind of feel that way… but for me, I have found that this feeling is somewhat unfounded. This is why I have become bored with “church” or at least the idea of “church.”
My current understanding of church… or at least, what the church should do when it meets, comes from scripture. It can be found in a number of places, Hebrews, 1 Corinthians are probably the two strongest places that I can think of. I sense that as the church, when we meet, we should be building relationships with each other, we should be teaching each other, encouraging each other, edifying and loving each other. I believe that it is everyones responsibility to do these things. Which is exciting to me, yet I have still become bored with “church.”
From my experiences I have learned that these things do not normally happen during the normal church meetings (Sunday morning/night, Wednesday, etc.). Instead, we meet for a couple quick bible lessons – usually from the same one person and sometimes some singing. There is sometimes a time for fellowship, if more than just a hand-shake then it is pretty much just surface level. I sense that this is mainly because there are usually way too many people in one meeting. Often what happens is cliques grow out of the meetings and whole groups of people end up ignoring each other. In a way, doing all of this is seen as fulfilling what scripture says… but frankly, I disagree.
I have found that it is extremely difficult to build real relationships when all you do is take part of these meetings. So, I have taken my relationship building with some of these people outside of this box. In fact, I don’t waste my time on the box at all anymore. I have a feeling that I am seen as the heretic or the “wolf” – which is fine, God is in control of all that. But for now, I will continue to attempt to use my time more wisely and actually do things that promote relationship building.
Some people may think that I am “forsaking the assembling” of ourselves. I would disagree on this point as well. I continue to meet with other believers. I do so virtually (through this blog, other blogs in the form of comments, email, and chat programs). I also meet with other believers face to face as often as I can – usually once or twice a week. Each of these meeting places gives me the opportunity to consider them and urge them to love and good works.
What do you think about this? I would love to hear from you.